The Valley...

I'm no fool.  I know that I've been led here so that I show another the way out.  I'm going to journal the whole way through to leave a trail.  Call me the Harriett Tubman of The Valley.  I've been enslaved, I've made my bed in Massah's house... I even tried to make it comfy, so as not to face the fact that........... i'm gonna have to fight for my freedom eventually.  Some days, slavery didn't feel so bad.  Other days, I couldn't fathom even putting one toe out of my bed.  For years.  I thought that if i just did this and a little of that... had that person with me or ate that thing, that it would eventually right itself.  It was my fault anyway.  Several things that came my way that i did to myself, made it hard to see the things that were totally out of my control.  It was just easier to blame me.

Fight or flight mode.  Live in a state of panic or fear long enough and you'll train your brain to either be anxious or depressed.  I've been ducking and dodging this part of my journey for a loooooooong time.  Now I'm here to stay and fight.  I'm going to go ahead and walk straight through this Valley and win.  Then leave my mile markers behind for all those who will come behind me, are still there by the time I come out and who were hiding in the same places I was so they wouldn't have to go through it.

Confrontation.  This is a fight for my Joy.  A fight for everything I've lost over the years due to lack, depression, no ambition or energy to seize what's mine.  I'm about to confront everything that stands in the way of the exit to this Valley. Every demon in hell... i want you to know... i'm coming out and I will win.  Jesus is walking through this with me.  He's holding my hand and He's showing me the way out.  If you try to hold on to my clothes, I'll burn you with fire, and you better not try and touch my body.  If you try to touch me your arms are gonna be broken in the name of Jesus!  I will call ALL of my protection, legions of God's Army to stand in my defense you even THINK you're gonna harm my family IN JESUS' NAME!!!  Now i need for you to see that this is a spiritual contract... it's not a threat... it's damn Law!!  I'm coming out of this alive and well, healed and whole.  Stand back and watch me!

Psalm 23:4-6

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil; For You are with me;

Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;

You anoint my head with oil;

My cup runs over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

All the days of my life; And I will dwell in the house of the LORD

Forever.