He is God. I am an under-achiever.

He is God.  He sits in the Heavenlies and is still everywhere at the same time.  There is nothing that was created, that wasn't created by Him.  He has a plan.  His plan includes all of us.  He only needs your willingness to be used by Him.  He doesn't need your ego.  He doesn't require you to be strong and strapping.  The only strength you'll ever need, is mental & spiritual.  There's nothing stronger than Him and He'll lend His strength to you whenever you truly need it. 

His enemy is like a piece of straw being disintegrated by Fire.  He's nothing compared to God.  What's really trippy- God is going to use us to continually destroy satan.  He's going to use our lil' weak, disobedient selves to bruise, crush and mame the highest evil Principality against The Lord and His agenda!  I'm stunned.  But more than stunned, I'm realizing that I'm an underachiever.  Considering how much power and love and faith and victory is available to me on a daily basis, I realize that I'm simply under-performing. 

He is God.  He sits in the Heavenlies and is still everywhere at the same time.  And yet I sit on earth trembling over silly financial, relational things.  Low things.  Earthly things.  I'll do better...

Brand New Past

So many funerals recently.  Too many goodbyes.  It's caused me to desperately cling to what I remember of them.  I miss you all...  Picking up my rose colored glasses, this blog is for you... I choose to only remember the good.  Creating a brand new past... nothing sad, other than that fact that those days are gone.  Here we go:

Hello 80's... been a long time.  I remember Klepinger Rd.  Anxiously awaiting my Aunt Linda to come over and play with me.  I miss her laugh, I miss her crooked feet lol, she made me pigeon toed and never knew it.  She drove a stick with both feet.. she was an original- but I wanted to be her clone.  She would come in and kick off her shoes, sit down and immediately overlap her feet... i copied her.  I wanted to be her.  Now I look exactly like her and her own children can't stand to look at me.  My hair, my eyes, my hips and my smile... all Aunt Linda.  I miss you. 

I remember Luther Vandross blaring from the stereo- "It's so amazing to be loved... I'd follow you to the mooooon in sky above"... me too.  I remember my mother singing at the top of her lungs trying to capture each and every butterflied run that came out of his mouth.  Or what about Anita Baker... she was ALWAYS present, "Giving you the best that I've got!"... ohh man.  I actually thought my mama KNEW Ashford and Simpson the way she would perform it at every barbecue..."SOLID!!..SOLID AS A ROCK!" 

I miss my daddy.  I miss waiting for him to get off work so I could help him take off his smelly work boots and steal half eaten candy bars out of his stinky work bucket.  I miss the sound of his laugh... and that gap in between his teeth.  I miss how big his belly was and how it seemed to sit upon the skinniest legs ever!  I miss his curly hair and hazel eyes.  ---I can't stop these tears---  I miss the gang of family that was always around him.  He loved his family so much.  I miss our "Detroit" Stevenson's that would keep us up waaaay past our bedtimes waiting for them to arrive.  The moment we gave up that waiting and just crawl in the bed, they would always end up pulling into the driveway... it would ALWAYS end up being an all night affair!  In the morning there would be kids and adults strewn all over the house sleep.  I miss yaw.  I miss Aunt Mary who was like my second mama!  I miss Uncle Lonnie who liked hangin' out and playing in the yard with the kids more than the adults.  I miss "us" being the 3 musketeers!  If you saw one, the other 2 weren't too far away. 

I miss stealing pickles with my cousins.  I remember that summer in Newnan, Georgia at Aunt Gent's house where we all messed up our ankles running through the Georgia pines at midnight.  Those were the days.  I remember the feeling of "home".  Of knowing that whenever I stepped through the door, I had my mother, my father, my sister & brother just on the other side.  All Together.

I remember when there were still houses that led allll the way down Gramont avenue- before they put the highway there.  My grandparents had so many friends and neighbors and it was non-stop porch sittin', gossipin' across the yards and yelling greetings back and forth!  I remember walking down to the store at the bottom of that hill on Gramont that resembled a small hut, but always had the best Chico-Sticks.  That made me smile.  I remember those raggedy cats that used to hang in my grandparents yard because he fed them everything!  I miss eating fresh produce from my grandaddy's farm.  I miss waking up with my grandfather before the sun came up, drinking his maxwell house coffee that he brewed from this super old coffee maker.  You could see the coffee bubbling at the top.  I would go back to sleep and wake up to the sounds of "The Young & The Restless" that my granny watch faithfully everyday, followed by The Price is Right!

I miss the holidays.  Daddy loved them so much.  It was the time where family "didn't have a choice" but to all be together.  I miss everybody hiding in their own corner of the house wrapping presents.  I miss Christmas morning as child.  It was always snow on the ground, and the nights were always filled with food, wood ablaze in the fireplace and the "itis" making everybody lay out with pants unzipped in front of it. 

I remember being on my Uncle Eric's boat and almost drowning in the lake after falling off of the intertube that he pulled us on.  I miss his jerry curl too! lolol

I miss how slow my grandma Bessie talked- lol!  That was my daddy's sweetheart.  I miss my dad's cousin/brother, Uncle Will.. you'd never know they weren't brothers.  They always talked the loudest, sang the loudest and wore the loudest clothes... I miss yaw.  I miss my grandma Emily, who always wanted you to fix her food, only, she wanted you to "put it in a cup".. trying to pretend she wasn't eating a lot! lolol.. she would ask you to fill up that cup like 60 times during the course of a dinner! 

My heart aches for it all.  It churns in my belly... white hot pangs of sadness.  I want my son to know you all.  I want him to know the "stock" in which he came from.  They all live in me and now him.  Why didn't I know that those truly were awesome days?  I remember when they were all here.  I think I like my "rose colored" glasses.  They block out the things that devastated me....  I only want to see these things..

I think I'll stay here awhile ... in my carefully sculpted, New Past...

Talk to the Pen...

Yeah, sis, He's just sayin' you can do betta
Just know, all Drake is tryna do is get you wetta
Lay aside your inhibitions
All of your intuition
Things that tell you that he's really just trippin'
You wanted it just as bad as sin
So why you mad and wanna blame him?
It's all the same
Flyy sistahs givin' they treasure to the lames...
Can't point the finger when I too can be blamed
Your brown is divine
But you're insecure, so you let it keep you behind
Never that go getter
Nervous, got the coffee jitters
Too scared to go higher
So you just stay low and bitter
Why am I comin' all out the cuff, you ask?

You askin' me questions, but the answer's make me sick...
So Imma answer 'em through my Bic

Chasin' peace with a tiny piece of mind
Claimin' it, hopin' to make it mine
Openin' my bible tryna consume a meal
Lookin' for meat
But I need my back teeth still
Kinky strands grow from my roots, revealing the truth in His creation
Sistahs on facebook confused, steadily on there debatin'
Glad 'cause with most of it, I can't even relate
It's late
Time sure is winding down
Gettin' my head on straight so I can wear my crown
You say why, why, why... this is my only reply


You askin' me questions, but the answer's make me sick...
So Imma answer 'em through my Bic

My mind gets heavy
So I let the Lord lift it
I look up to the sky becomin' the cloud that's driftin'
So terrific
The way you can escape the world's burn
Remembering the homeland that I'll one day return
I get frustrated with my people and their lack of knowledge
Sittin' around snappin' they fingers like, "Whatchama'callit?"
Famous for one thing, and one thing only
Being the rawest me I can be
Yeah you know I own it
I'm so imperfect and sometimes I love that
I think my imperfections keep me from being wack
Feel that,
And all that comes with it, why you askin' me...
Let me just repeat it

You askin' me questions, but the answer's make me sick...
So Imma answer 'em through my Bic

:::Drops The Mic:::

Copyright © 2011- Disciple Latter Reign

Drop The Mic- Series...

I guess my questions is, what made you think it was cool to just live ya life recklessly??  You're sittin' at the "beautiful gate" of possibility, and instead of just walkin' in on your own, you've decided it would be better to just take your mat and sit there beggin' for somebody else's increase!  GET UP! 

Whatsoever God purposes and creates, He also gives the ability to FULFILL it's purposes!  It's already in you.  The reason it may not be functioning is because you haven't activated it with The Holy Spirit!  The Holy Spirit is that deposit to your DP&L (Power & Light)!  If you don't have your "Holy Deposit", YOU WILL just be sitting in the dark, in a building that has the ABILITY to have Light, but hasn't been activated!  Why would God make a thing, but then make it impossible for it to fulfill its purposes?  Doesn't even sound right.  That's because He'd never do that.

So why you spend your time getting wasted, seeking one dumb suicidal thrill after another, you totally missed it!  Don't you realize that it will never be enough?  You keep trying to find the next fix and the next because it's really not doing the trick!  Let me say this plainly, the only thing that will EVER bring you joy, satisfaction, peace, pleasure, excitement, love and fulfillment is JESUS!!  The ONLY thing!  Not ya man/woman... not your promiscuous ways, not your husband/wife, not your children, mother, father, sister brother uncle nephew neice granny gramps playcousin playmama babydaddy sugadaddy/mama MONEY DRUGS & HOES (oh my!)- NOBODY BUT JESUS!!  When you stop making these people and things your God, only then will you begin to know true peace and contentment.

The funniest thing happens when people achieve the "things" they thought would make them happy.  When they get it and find out that they still have a gaping hole in their inner being, they become further depressed and desperate.  They think, "I thought THIS would make me happy... what am I going to do??"... the word says, "What profit a man to gain the whole world, but lose his own soul!"  That is a sad day.  When you finally get the man you've been searching for, the house, the picket fence dog & child, only to discover that you're still the same old wretched self that you were before! 

God is the only one that can make things right!  On facebook, I feel so sad.  I see so many beautiful women on there, with absolutely no sense of self worth.  If she thinks you're sexy enough, she'll give you the booty, even though she may make you wait a little bit to try and  "appear" as if she's not easy.  Look at what the world has taught you sis!  It has taught you that marriage is no longer something to wait for and if you like him, just give all of your treasure to him.  This is why so many of my sisters are obliterated at the end of a relationship that has no contract!  You're essentially giving away your most precious gems to somebody that has signed no contract to care for it, so if they damage it in any way, there are no repercussions.  You wouldn't do this with money, so why would you do it with your body or life?

Why?  Because your own life demonstrates that money & cars are more important than you! 

Get ya weight up!  You're LOSING this race....

:::drops the mic:::

Expect the Unexpected..TVB

Expect the Unexpected... in The Valley.

The scene: I'm sittin' here, Jasmine incense filling my nostrils, twirling the swollen kinks in my long hair.  Feeling calm.  This season has been an extremely interesting one.  I've been walking with my Savior, allowing Him to show me every tactic that the enemy uses against us.  Some were "AHA" moments, some were complete discoveries.  This, however---> totally unexpected.

Over the past few days, the Lord has been revealing to myself and my husband, that the weapons we've used in the past were ineffective.  I mean, not just ineffective... more like USELESS!  Imagine my surprise when the Lord is flat out saying things like, "This is why you lose".... yeah... with the FAT 'L' on my forehead.  Although, I was aware of the fact that the weapons we're supposed to fight with, aren't the human weapons we're used to, I have apparently still been using said weapons, expecting to win.

Anger-

^{[Eph. 26-27]
"}Go ahead and be angry. You do well to be angry—but don't use your anger as fuel for revenge. And don't stay angry. Don't go to bed angry. Don't give the Devil that kind of foothold in your life."

I was out for revenge.  I wanted to "get" satan... like, what does that even look like?? Who can even tell me what it looks like to "get" satan?? I don't even know what that fool looks like, let alone "get" him... and when I did "GET" satan... what was I gonna do to him?  Foolishness!! I wasn't just angry though... angry is a pretty and frilly word to describe a current state of being upset about something.  I was BITTER!!  Bitter is more of a BOTTOM LINE state of being.  I mean just chew on a bucket of ice cold lemons with NO salt and you'll begin to see what I mean --->that was me.  I don't even know why I'm saying "was" because the way I see it, this is gonna take a while.  Here I've been seething mad at satan, as if bitterness and anger alone was gonna make him stop messing with me.  Much like the way dogs growl at those they feel are a threat to them.  Let me break this down:

More times than not, anger comes from fear.  Have you ever met somebody that was sooooooooooooo mean to people, but when you really got to know them, they're the sweetest person you've ever met?  They are that way because of fear.  If they can intimidate people enough, then people won't too much mess with them, or discover just how soft they are and possibly hurt them in some way.  Afraid to love, afraid to be hurt... just afraid.  So... it comes out in anger.

That was me.  I've spent just about my whole existence in fear of loving people and life, the way I should because I've been hurt so badly along the way.  Now I see it this way: Being mean, makes me a punk.  Loving with my whole heart, even when faced with being badly hurt, makes me brave.  I'm learning to be brave.

On the fighting front: Love is the strongest weapon we have in the whole GAMUT of weapons! 1 John 4:17-18 -There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear.  If the reason for my anger and bitterness is fear... then this scripture points to love as my cure.  You can NOT, I repeat, CANNOT cure your own heart.  If you could, it would've been taken care of a long time ago!  Who wants to live like this??  The only way for it to be done at all, is for God to do this one all on His own.  Luke 16:15- He said to them, “You are the ones who justify yourselves in the eyes of men, but God knows your hearts..."... 

I don't know my heart.  So here I am, understanding that number one, If I want to fight and win, I'm gonna have to love HARD!!  Number two- my fight is not to square up with satan and think that it's goin' down like that, rather, my fight is to stay in line with God and what He has for me.  To deny the enemy access to me through his many efforts and means to trip me up.  This has been the main idea of this Valley Battle series that I've been in: That Love is and will always be the ONLY thing that conquers and obtains the victory. 

Much different from where I began, because I was [understandably] pissed off when I discovered some of the things that the enemy was doing to hurt and threaten me and mine.  However, now, the Lord is desiring to heal my heart, thereby, winning my battle through love.  <<---when you write contracts all day, the words "thereby, hereunto & herein" become a ridiculously irritating recurrence in your vocabulary *sigh*... but I digress...

God desires your heart, the enemy seeks to ruin it, to make it muddy and hard...but My God wants to make it clean-again- soft, good and strong.  I choose His way...

This might just be the end of this particular session in The Valley... but we'll see.... I know that I'm not done learning... so I'm sure I'll be back soon. 

Love you all.. Pray my strength and my continued Evolution...in The Valley...

Daddy's Girl... TVB

Daddy's Girl....TVB...

Yo, true story... the spirit world is ALIVE!!! For some reason, we just don't believe it.  It's an out of sight, out of mind deal with we humans.  We assume that just because we can't see these fools harassing us and brow-beating us in the flesh----- they just don't exist!! NOT TRUE!!!  Case in point:

The last time I was on here, I told you all that I'd found enemy barracks... I saw where they kept my ishhh AND I saw the weapons that they use in order to KEEP them.  I went in to get my ish... but before I went in initially, I told you all that it was going to be madd live rounds being shot my way!  They still are....

It was like, One day I'm sitting on the phone with one my closest friends, telling them how the enemy was NOT going to take something in particular away from me.  THE VERY NEXT DAY.... the enemy launched an all out assault in the very area that I SWORE He wasn't going to take.  Now, I could be just like every other intentionally blindfolded human being and think to myself, "Self... this is not what it looks like!  This is just a coincidence.  There's no way that satan's goons are actually trying to test me in this area!" ... Self, you're absolutely lying to, well, US!  This is exactly what it looks like!

I'm in The Valley.  The enemy saw me coming straight for my ishhh... then allz of a sudden they tried to hit me with a low blow.  They went for my ministry!  I mean straight for it! Then, something interesting happened.  It got dark in enemy territory.  Only it got dark for THEM! 

While I had been blown away by just how real the spirit world is to me, I hadn't said anything about just how real the Spirit of God is to me now!  I can feel Him all over me.  Showing me where the enemy is trying to steal, kill and destroy me.  Now, I can add THIS to the reality of His Presence:  He not only destroyed the enemy working behind this particular "Puppet Show", but He then gave a stern warning to the next person who would ever try to hurt me or my ministry again. I was dumbfounded..... 

Wow, sounds like the EPITOME of a Father, to me.  He basically said, "You ever do my baby wrong again, you won't be able to accumulate any wealth for 3-5 years"... I love Him sooooo!! What can I say other than...

I'm a Daddy's Girl :) Happy Father's Day is everyday for me.  I love you, Daddy!  You are His Majesty, The ONLY wise God...... there is nobody Greater than You!

Being Spoiled.... even in The Valley. Continue to Pray... the ammo is real....

Spiritual Oppression...TVB

Ladies and Gentlemen... I'm tired.

Not really just about being in The Valley... but the level of exhaustion I'm feeling let's me know that it's Spiritual Oppression.  Peep this definition: Oppression- A feeling of being heavily weighed down in mind or body.

This is what I feel.  I feel like I'm literally carrying a laundry bag of BRICKS on my back!  I get tired really quickly but it can't be physical.... it's too heavy.  It's like a fog.  You see I haven't put anything in this blog in days.... been too tired.  When I have a minute to actually write in my blog, all I want to do is sleep.  So... now that I'm aware of the fog... I can begin to burn it away with the SON!!!  There is no light that's brighter... no fire that's hotter than The Son!  So let me pull out my sWord to see which part of it I need to use to slice up the enemy...

What's really interesting is, as I sit here waiting to hear a word from God about Oppression, I'm being brought to scriptures about demonic activity in the bible.  Which is fitting because it is spiritual enemies that oppress us in the physical.  I thought i would find scriptures about Oppression to stand on, but what God is telling me is that we're about to have to go into "live action"....again!   This is going to take action!  It's going to take my MOUTH & my FAITH!!!  I will have to use authority in Christ to cast the enemy OFF & AWAY from me AND my house! Good thing I'm married, because I can use the agreement God gave us to battle this thing out!! 

I was reminded about Saul who had been disobedient to God and the Lord Most High sent demons TO him to torture him.  The sWord says this: 1 Sam. 16:15-16-- 15 Saul's attendants said to him, "See, an evil spirit from God is

tormenting you. 16 Let our lord command his servants here to search for someone who can play the harp. He will play when the evil spirit from God comes upon you, and you will feel better." 


Now here is something interesting.  The sWord is showing how powerful music is... it can actually cast out demons!  Saul is asking for a musician (David) to come and play the Harp for him so that the demons will leave!  Awesome!  So I know that music is an option.... yet I'm still being stopped in my tracks as I write this.  I will need to update you later on the happenings.  I'm just now figuring out that Jesus sent me here to FOR REAL get MY STUFF!!   


Folks, I'm going into "Live Action" and I don't know when I'll be able to break to fill you in on what's going.  Something awesome just happened while I sat here looking through Scriptures to stand on and use during this battle.  While looking, I found the enemies stash!  I found the ROOT of the attacks taking place in my life and my family's life!  The two "Atomic" bombs so to speak.  The GO-TO weapons when all else fails against me.  Wow... that was NOTHING BUT JESUS!!! He will not only walk with you and show you the way out... He will show you where these fools have hidden your peace and your freedom ANNNNDD show you what their using to keep taking it from you!  My God is AMAZING! 


Think about it:  I'm coming up against lack, poverty, depression, illness, slothfulness and the likes... well the root of all of these things seem to be these two tactics- Flooding & Oppression.  (Go and look back at the Noah TVB Post) The enemy floods me with situations to try to overwhelm me... then while I'm Spiritually overwhelmed, he oppresses me by PHYSICALLY making my body feel heavy.  I can feel it in my bones to the point where I don't want to move.  I can't get off the couch... I barely want to get out of bed.  The Oppression settles in my eye sockets and all I want to do is lay down and sleep.  This is not a natural thing for somebody my age!  This is Spiritual... I'm headed into Enemy Barracks... please cover me in prayer.


CELEBRATE FRIENDS... I'm on my way to getting free!!!  With heavy tears in my eyes... I'm gonna have to say: To be continued....


Now is the time to pray FOR REAL friends......In The Valley!!

Call me Noah...TVB

So, it's been a few days.  Not on purpose though...I actually wrote a blog day before yesterday and it got erased.  I'm still outrageously pissed about that too!  Some updates here in the Valley-  Got someone saved while I was here= Proof that no matter where you are in your walk, God's work can still be done!  But I digress...

So, I'm walking through the Valley with Jesus... and it pisses me off that most of the time, i never know the lessons as i'm looking at them... it's not until after the fact.

Annoyed.

I looked around and realized that it was all falling to pieces... I was being attacked in every direction!  There was so much going on around me, I didn't even know where to start!  It was up to my chest until i realized what all was happening: I was in a flood.  Here's the technique: Flooding- To cover or submerge with; To completely overwhelm with something.

This technique is one of the enemy's best!  It's when they "Make it rain" on your pretty lil head!  They dump so much crap on you that  you literally can't understand what to do or how to stop it!  It's easy when the day consists of one or two major attacks on the battlefield... but when it's 8 or 9... and sometimes more- you think that there's no way you can fight it.  I mean what part of the sword could you even use for a million different situations that happen all at once?!?! 

Welp folks... during this series of major attacks all at once, a sistah like me went straight Noah on the enemy and built an ARK!!!  The word says this: Isa. 59:19- When the enemy comes like a raging flood tide, the Spirit of the Lord will drive him back. I'm so thankful for our Lord.... He literally says here that when the enemy tries to drown you in fears, poverty, depression, lack, bitterness and confusion... He will DRIVE the enemy back off of you!

He rescues us friends.  He's our Savior!  I love my God so!  What we can't do for ourselves He will do!  The most important part of this lesson for me was the understanding of my own weakness.  My weakness and total dependence upon the Lord is truly my strength!  The Sword says this- 2 Cor. 12:9- But he told me: "My kindness is all you need. My power is strongest when you are weak." So I will brag even more about my weaknesses in order that Christ's power will live in me.  Yesss.... I'm so weak!  I need Him to rescue me!  When the enemy tries to drown my in my fears and short-comings and I turn to God, who IS my help, only then will victory be mine!  I couldn't stop or even see all the attacks coming my way... but God could and I sought Him for my help.  Victory.

I once again used my Sword to slice off the hands of the enemy!  As you exit this blog, try not to slip on the blood of the enemy... he's lost again! 

Pray my strength friends......................................In The Valley.

Pulling Strings...TVB

The Puppeteer...TVB

I was aware yesterday, thanks to my Jesus.  He told me not to be lulled into a false sense of security.  I knew enough to enjoy the peace of the day, but arm myself with the truth [My Truth. My Sword= His Word].  The truth was, "I'm still on The Valley's Battlefield".  I'm so thankful to be able to hear Him and I know that He won't leave me through this process because it is absolutely necessary for me, and for the others behind me, to PAY ATTENTION!

Today I got "live action".  Let me try and some up the day.  I got up this morning with the hubby... my son was close behind us.  We fed him, he played.  He busted his lip on one of his toys.  He fussed and cried.  His gums bled, his lip got swollen.  He healed.  Later on, after my workout, I took my shower.  I come out of the shower to hearing my son and husband making weird noises in the living room.  I heard my husband faintly call out to me.  He was afraid.  I ran naked into the hallway to find that the sounds I heard were the sounds of my son choking to death.  My husband was trying to do a maneuver on him to make him spit up what he was choking on.  It didn't work.  I ran up to them and just did what my instincts told me to do: i stuck my finger into his mouth and down his throat.  I went in there to get whatever it was out.  I ended up gagging him and it made him throw it up.  I was shaking.  I cried.  I was PISSED OFF!!!  He healed. Me= still pissed.  I didn't want to talk to another person. Ever.

My husband was frazzled for the rest of the day.  His blood pressure apparently skyrocketed because he ended up with terrible headache.  I was worried about that.  Unable to think clearly he just became a zombie throughout the rest of the day.  I'm already irritated by all that happened today so I'm not sensitive to his plight.  Just as we are halfway through dinner, Jo wakes up screaming and crying.  We wait it out, hoping he'll just fall asleep again.  Didn't happen.  My hubby can't take it anymore- he goes to get our son.  Jo's eyes are huge, red and puffy.  It makes me soooo sad to look at his precious little face like that.  I want to cry..........again.  We feed him a small bottle, play a little bit.  He gets sleepy again and we lay him down.  Cries a little but goes to sleep.  Hubby is so done with this day he can barely deal with any of it.  I feel exhausted, we can barely look at each other from sheer exhaustion.  He ends up taking some Tylenol PM and heads to bed. 

Now........Here I sit.  Typing away, staring at everything that Jesus has put before me today to see.  The scripture that is blaring in my mind is this: [Eph. 6:12]-This is not a wrestling match against a human opponent. We are wrestling with rulers, authorities, the powers who govern this world of darkness, and spiritual forces that control evil in the heavenly world. 

Today in The Valley, I witnessed a spiritual puppet show.  I saw my family being used spitefully to make me distraught.  I mean lets just call it what it is.... these bastards used my husband and my son to illicit dangerous emotions and fears in me.  They threatened my son's life to make me afraid.  They threatened my husband's sanity and health by causing him to be frustrated and feel totally out of control today.  It caused me to fear losing him too.  I'm exposing this for two reasons: 1) The things you hide in the dark, whether it be for shame or for safe keepings, will eventually come to light. 2) There is no consequence of me revealing this!  My family is covered by the Blood of Jesus and I refuse to allow the enemy to try and put me in bondage of fear!!! This.............is my battle! 

So sad, dear Puppeteer.... you have been revealed again.  Thank you Jesus for walking with me on this Journey!  Deal with me in the places of my fear, O' God!  Heal my emotions, Lord.  Remove the fear I have of losing my husband and my son... they mean the world to me.  Although, this fear isn't uncommon, the God I serve IS an uncommon God!  There is no one like you Jesus!  Therefore I know that even something as scary and tormenting as dealing with the fear of losing your loved ones, can still be conquered.  Heal me God.  I don't want to be bound anymore.

The spirit behind them wanted to bind me in fear.  It was a threat.  The threat was this, "Michelle, if you continue on this path, I'll hurt the ones you love most".  My response, "No you won't.  Bottom line, no matter what happens... I'm coming for my damn peace of mind and if you have it, you better act like you don't because I'm coming straight for it."  My God protects me always... read this: [Psalm 27:1]- [By David.] The LORD is my light and my salvation. Who is there to fear? The LORD is my life's fortress. Who is there to be afraid of?


I will be using this scripture whenever I feel afraid of anything.  He is the Author and He is the Finisher, I need to trust that He knows what's He's doing and also that my Jesus is the stronghold of my life and is a fierce protector of what belongs to Him--->> Me + My family + You=   Whom shall I fear?


Pray my strength, friends............................. In The Valley.

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The Deception....

Today is gravy.  It feels as if nothing in the world is wrong.  I mean, I could just go and float my lil self on a cloud and totally believe that I'm allllllll good!  Papa is home with me having a great time with just me and baby boy.  It feels great outside annnnnnd, I had me some coffee so you KNOW I'm happy!  Coffee makes me feel like the world is a PEACH! 

How-some-ever!  It's not!  If i put my guard down now i will, indeed, be clobbered.  Nothing is all good.......yet!  I know that the enemy is trying to lull me into a false sense of security.  I have not yet been delivered.  That battle is still on.  The enemy is absolutely in hiding waiting for me to be naked and unaware so he can attack. That's why until I know, I will remain on guard.  The Lord says in Matthew 10:16- I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.

I'm through with the thought that every quiet moment is meant to lay down my sword and pretend i'm not battling.  When you're in a battle, even when there's no live fire, the enemy is still plotting the next attack.  Be a step or two ahead at all times.  I am, afterall, still in the Valley.  I'm on a mission to get back my stuff! 

Sometimes I will be the one to attack!  If i'm going to get my stuff that means, "I won't bust-back, because I'm shootin' first"!  Don't be deceived.  The enemy will lay low to make you think it's all in your head.  Take it from me: You are still in the Valley.  You are still fighting.  You are still looking for your stuff.  It's not over until He says so!  Appreciate the peace, but always be ready to use your sword if need be.  Start your day with the Sword, end your day with Sword.  Lets. Go.

Shrewd as a snake, gentle as doves.  Pray my strength............. In the Valley.