Sleep would be awesome right now. Apparently that's not for me tonight. I feel like there are a million things screaming for my attention during this time and I have no idea where to start. Awakened by an "any hour of the day" habitual texter and the sound of my husband pissed off about it... God help my mouth. People truly don't understand how much crap goes on in my day... so when I ask you to text me within certain hours of the day... dude that's exactly what I mean. Our issues run deeper than tonight though.. she and I have had yeeeeaaarrrs of us getting on each other's last eva lovin' nerves. The next time will be soooo ugly... and totally on purpose. Now I don't know if I'll be able to sleep before the New day barges through my window proclaiming itself...First off, just to let YEW know... the bigger person doesn't need to get the last word... so take that, jerk!!!
I'm a control freak. I don't mean a lil bit= I mean to the point where people's civil liberties could be revoked if i could have it my way. true story.
The battlefield is soooo in the mind. I mean the more i layed there.. the more i could picture myself really doing some damage to somebody... body shots and all... but then the Lord quoted one of my current favorite scriptures, Proverbs 29:18- "Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keeps the law, happy is he".... as soon as I heard that scripture pop intp my head... all the anger and frustration just went away and I could think clearly again. I started to envision the life I want to have and how i want my household to be run. It made me smile and it lifted me.. battle won. However, now I can't sleep from thinking about all of these things that i want!
I think I'm going to sue my apartment complex. Me and the baby had a really bad fall on Friday which landed us both in the E.R. It was completely their fault. Now I don't know what to do... on the one hand... I'm pissed and would totally be doing it to get back at them and MAKE them hold some responsibility for what happened to us! On the other, my God says that vengeance is His... so I can't take that approach with this situation. Maybe we'll tell them the situation and then let them decide how they'll compensate us. Me and my fracture boot will be sitting in their office on Monday, thank you very much! ---spiritual council welcome on this situation---
I'm really buggin' about the future of my Organization. There is so much that must be done in my community but there seems not to be enough people doing anything about it! So me and my Sorors are literally SWAMPED with opportunities that people are hurling our way... i've never seen so many desperate people in my life. We need more people to help us. We need willing and able bodies to take some time out of their schedules to do something that will touch a life. I'm praying that the Lord is about to pour His blessings all over us and this org because we need it. If you know somebody willing to help... tell them to contact me at info@thetasigmalambda.org ... members and volunteers WANTED!!
Hmmmm... is there more? Let's see. Okay, so what i really want to do more than anything in this world right now is do laundry, mop my floors, vacuum the carpet, do some grocery shopping to make a BANGIN' meal and straighten up the rest of the house. JESUS HELP ME!!! What is my DEAL??? It's 1:05 IN THE MERnTiNG!!! #foolishness <<-- omgsh... why did i just put a hashtag on my blog??? This ain't Twitter!! I'm being brainwashed by this dang on Internet! Prayer needed.
Okay, the storm is subsiding... i think. I feel better... guess i just had to let it all hang out for a minute. Whoever takes the time to read this... you are dead wrong if you don't comment lolol... j/k <<---but am i?? hmmmm ...lolol no seriously though, i'm getting goofy which is a good sign! It means that the sandman may have hit me in the face again... let's give sleep another try!
G'night/MornTing Bloggerz :)
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