Matthew 10:16

Like, who am I really fighting here?  Why does it seem like brand new enemies are appearing out of no where?  I've always had this feeling that i needed to stand alone because people just aren't trustworthy... i know it says that we wrestle NOT against flesh and blood and that our battles are in the spiritual... but what is to be said about these people that allow the enemy to use them???  Are we to just overlook the fact that these folks, having free will, just allow the enemy to use them to hurt others?  These people with their flaky, sometimey ways... these people who go behind your back to discuss every word that comes out of your mouth... same folks that CLAIM to be of God, yet live their lives in blatant disrespect of His Majesty.  Why have i let them so close to me?  I feel stupid.  Why don't i have enough sense to shut the door on folks like these? 

Stealth mode.  I can't trust you.  Although you've proven yourself untrustworthy, i won't change... and you really wont know that i've found you out.  All you'll know is, "Wow, she really doesn't talk as openly to me as she used to".... that day will be awesome for me!  It will mean that i've learned how to give what is necessary and control my mouthgate!  I'm way too emotional about this stuff, yo!  Lord, melt the icebox forming around me... don't allow my heart to become hardened against your people!  Holy Spirit help me to continue on in my love, but give me wisdom on my own conduct around these people who are too ignorant to know that what they do, is harmful! 

I feel better.  Blogs are a blessing because it allows me to release in ways that i can't do with many!

Matthew 10:16- Look, I am sending you out as sheep among wolves. So be as shrewd as snakes and harmless as doves

I shall endure until the end though....