Enigmatic Randomness

Let it pour.  These are the remnants of puzzle pieces with no match. Fragments of a mosaic with no pattern.  In order to gain freedom, you must first pluck out your eyes; listen for the whisper of God.  Sometimes i not only feel blind, but deaf too.  Walking around just "feeling" my way through.  I wanna run and hide, but how can i when the train is already on the tracks?  I would just be holding up traffic.  Sometimes the only things that can keep you warm are love and a pair of arms.  When those things aren't present, though, the enemy thinks he's found an entrance.  never.  Why wear clothes when i allow you to see right through me?  Sometimes the only way you can see truth is through the transparency of another.  Sometimes the only way you can let go of your past is to see someone Else's ghost.  Respect the Lord of Hosts!  I get so angry when i see people who should know better disrespect my God.  We are NOT to judge the world...that's on God.  But we are to judge the church...those of us who claim to know the Lord but steadily doing the work of the enemy, need to be checked. period.  Sometimes i ask myself, "is it really worth it?"  I know the answer.  I used to be a Phoenix, but then the forecasters said that there would be Reign.  I have an umbrella but i pray that i get soaked.  Sometimes i wanna use really bad curse words to crush your pride...but that would only crush the phone i use to call Dad.  Can't.  It took me a while to realize you suck.  I want to believe the good in everyone i come in contact with, but that's not wisdom.  Then you... you think that you're about to come back in and wear me out with all of your mess... no no.  I have a wall up that is so stealth like, you'll just keep running into it over and over again because you can't prove it's there.  IT'S THERE!!  Believe it homie.  After all these years of running into drama-hungry heffas, i've found the solution to keeping it out of my life.  Not gonna tell.  It takes wisdom to be able to jump in mud and not get dirty. That made me smile.  My joy can exist in my sadness.  I can shed tears and be better off than the sista next to me that's fakin' the funk.  True story.  I need you... but sometimes you don't see me... you think, in your mind that it's all good.  It's not.  You'll see.  That is all.