Desert. Bitter. Sound. Light. Hope. Faith. Black. Tan. Blue. You. No me. Life. Right. Left. Cries. Laughs. Worry. Money. Tomorrow. Yesterday. Tonight. Loss. Gain. Sweet. Death. Anxious. Doubt. Fear. Sadness. Exhaustion. Sick. Well. Promise. Word. Never. Always. Sometimes. Whenever. Irritation. Confusion. Enemy. Hair. Skinny. Liars. You mad? You jealous? You lookin'? You matter? Do you? Do I? I don't? You don't? You won't? Why not? How so? Are you blind? Don't you want to know? Why don't you ask? Why can't you see? What do i have to say? What do i have to do? What if i did? Isn't it? Aren't you supposed to? Why don't you care? Who are you asking? Do you hear me? Do you see me? Can you feel me? That's what you said! Yes it is! I won't say it again! Don't ask me again! You already know the answer! WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME THINGS THAT YOU KNOW? WHY DO I HAVE TO USE ALL CAPS? WHY CAN'T I EVER JUST RELAX? WHY ARE YOU TEXTING ME ABOUT THIS? DIDN'T WE JUST GO OVER THIS? THAT'S WHY I DON'T ANSWER MY PHONE!!! IS THIS REALLY WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME??? COULD I BE MISSING THE POINT??? COULD I HAVE GOTTEN THIS ALL WRONG??? WOULD YOU TELL ME THE TRUTH??? WHY LIE??? RAGE!!! WHERE ARE MY BLINDERS??? I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU IN MY PERIPHERAL!!! GO AWAY!!! I HAVE DEFEATED YOU!!! THAT'S WHY YOU'RE MAD!!! I WON'T STOP!!! YOU CAN'T HAVE IT!!! YOU'LL NEVER HAVE IT!!! SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Is this the end? it feels like the beginning. i refuse to let you in. you're not real. you can't be trusted. but i can trust You. i know ur there. i know why you remove yourself from me at times. i understand. but i know you're still there. just talk to me. tell me what you want me to know. teach me. i can't learn this without you. i'm yet holding on. i stand but am weak. perfect strength=weakness. you want me, come get me. you want me to. tell me how. i'll do it. you know i will. i'm all yours. i'm gonna beat this. all i do is win. all i want is you. i want you to hold me. i need you. see me. hear me. loooooove me. clear the path. you'd rather sit in the cold? smh. somebody else will. believe it. you don't have to understand. but He does.
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