Spiritual Puke!

So today was the day that i let go a few lingering issues. Today was the day that i took control over a few things that were clogging up the pores to my spirit. I've been tight lipped about these things and didn't want to tell God how I really felt about them. I even TRIED to tell Him how I was feeling. It didn't work. I just felt this resistance... like SHHHHHHHHHHH... don't say nothing!! Today I couldn't take it anymore!!! I stuck my finger deep down into my throat and PUKED IT ALL OUT!!! All the stuff i've been wanting to ask for... all the feelings that I've been holding on to ... came flyin' outta my mouth in huge spiritual chunks! I saw somethings come out that for the life of me, i could figure out what i digested that would make THAT color of puke!

I feel a lil better i gotta say... but i think there will be more coming out tonight. That's right... it ain't over by a long shot. Just a minute ago i felt some rumbling in my spirit that let me know that there's more! So... i'm gonna take a deep breath and let the fat, spiritual baby chunks flow. While I know that you love my analogies of venting to God and PUKE... i just want you to know that it's all for you :-) lolololol...

No, but the reason I'm blogging this is because I want everybody (anybody who may read this) to know that there comes a time when all the things in life that we get poisoned with, and even the things we poison ourselves with, have to come out... one way or the other. However it comes out... get a fat bucket and puke it out before the Lord Almighty in Jesus Name!!! lololol

{{OmMppFF}} I think another round is underway... GOTTA GO!! Hope to see you there ;-)

FINGER.WAVES.

Yeah so.. yesterday I was walking downtown and saw somebody with Finger Waves and was sincerely perplexed! Like... what??!?!?! Waves are back?? I'm gonna need the name and number of the person that authorized this comeback!! What makes it so bad... they weren't fresh at all! They were like crusty... and if anybody was like me back in the day... then you know that old brown gel STANKS! I thought i even saw somebody with a box the other day... i just don't know what's going on here! I'm trying to stay "in" as best i can but the older you get the less you know about today's fashions... that is unless you have access to teenagers who you can completely harrass on a weekly basis as the fads shift and change like the wind.

I'm in this tug of war with my age and how young i feel. I feel so old sometimes but I know that i'm young! So what should I put on my back right now??? LOL! Victoria Secrets Pink line are OUT for me simply because my boobs have decided for me that it ain't goin' down. period. I LOVE TORRIDS!!! However, Torrid money is non existent. period. SO= any ideas... what should 28/29 years old be wearing?? Keep in mind that i'm a SAVED 28/29 so don't come @ me with some stuff that has the majority of my Double D's hangin' out on the ground... lolololoL!

First post of 2009=All.At.Once.

I guess it's been a while huh? lol... I haven't committed to this website and I should because it gives me great peace to just come on here sometimes and just vent you know?? Well I'm going to give you something a lil different. I'm going to start a prayer journal instead of just a blog... i'm going to be really transparent with you all on here because I believe even if you don't say anything, it's possible that my struggles will help some of you cope with things... maybe even inspire you to want more from God and not be afraid to ask for it =)

2009 so far=

This year has been an eye-opener. Some of it very painful but some of it extremely liberating... When we don't live our lives to please God He will sometimes blind us of our mess... that is until He's ready to reveal to you the carnage you've left behind. Well 2009 began with a violent tearing away of the scales that were blinding my view of myself. It was painful and so far has led to a lot of nights on my face crying out to God to make me better. However, it made me free. Free of living in ignorance of myself and the things that I do. I'm thankful for that. Things that I thought i'd gotten over, my ways, my mouth and most of all my total lack of understanding where my purpose is concerned= it has been a huge awakening for me. I'm a 28 year old woman who has lived through horrible things that i mostly brought on myself and now i just want it all to stop. My faith in Christ should have given me peace through the storm and stability in waivering times but... i realized this year that although i believe that He is God... i didn't believe a WORD He said. Yeah... a WORD. I realized that i really don't stand on anything when faced with tribulation. I allowed the emotional aspect of it all sweep me in to overhaul and just dealt with it... without a fight.

Well i woke up... now i'm out of agreement with all those things that tried to hurt me and trick me into believing in them. I'm done.. and i'm ready to take a stand... on God's Word that is.

Here are the things that I strongly desire in 2009:

Peace
Love
Joy
Real Relationship with God
What is Good
What is Happy
What is Sweet
What Flows
Clarity
Direction
Fearlessness
Boldness
Concentration
Integrity
Wealth
Health
Abundance of Life
Children.

I want them NOW! I'm not afraid to ask for them anymore... all. at. once.<