Blood & Tears...

It's me again...

Thank you friend.  You're always there when i need you.  When i need a blank sheet of paper to write on or when i just need for it to be my perspective and nobody else's.  I appreciate my blog.

I feel heavy whenever i look at the news.  I see all this senseless blood being shed.  People getting shot down like it's hunting season.  How will we overcome this in our city?  This lil bitty town has enough going on for 4 or 5 cities!  From the lack of jobs and poverty to the gangs and wanna be gang activity.  I was told the other day that somebody literally got shot in the club because the song they requested didn't get played before someone else's.  WHAT?!?!  I'm struggling to not just ask my husband to move us somewhere else.  He's ready to go... but nowadays... everywhere you go is about the same.

This world's inhabitants fell off a huge cliff a long time ago and now we're nearing the end of that fall.  The crash will not be pleasant.  The further you have to fall, the more momentum you gain along the way---which means, what started as a penny will end up being an atomic bomb x's a million. 

I pray for my city.  I mourn for my city like it was an old friend of mine.  I'm so sad that the biggest industry in my city is the health care and funeral home businesses.  I'm asking the Lord to destroy the foolishness, innocent and not so innocent bloodshed.  Pray with me friends, in a few days we will be celebrating the day our Lord shed THE ONLY BLOOD NECESSARY to be made whole again. 

He is risen!!!  Pray the Lord will resurrect this city again... love u all...

Pride clipped your heels...

I've learned so very much over the past.... ohhhh 9 months or so.  Wisdom like that is just PRICELESS!!  I've learned so much about humility and just what it means to be humble.  It's a tough lesson, but i've seen first hand what happens when we allow our pride to stand in the way of things.  Now i've always been transparent... always open and honest with people... but too much isn't wisdom either.  You can say that I've learned where my happy medium is.

I've recently seen what happens to friendships when there is a lack of transparency or offering a level vulnerability.  It's interesting because I didn't even know that vulnerability was a prerequisite to humility.  It is.  When you are so full of pride that you refuse to allow others to see YOU, then you'll be forced to watch a wedge be driven between you and the ones you "say" you love. 

Too prideful.  Like, the fear of being open and honest about your true self is so great that you'd prefer to put on a facade of unfazed strength.  People start to see the facade and they'll ultimately think you're fake. 

They don't see that you're afraid to be vulnerable with them.  They only see the mask.  While you're trying to protect yourself from being hurt, others only see that you're not genuine. I thank God for His redeeming power and awesome love!  I've also been witness to how being totally honest and transparent can save friendships, make them stronger and even melt the ice around someone's heart.  

I just pray we will all begin to think of how our "defense mechanisms" are creating a rift in our relationships.  Sometimes it's just not worth it to try and always "appear" so put together.  I believe our imperfections are the things that make us awesome and REAL... not our futile attempts at complete perfection.  Proceed in wisdom, but try to find a more authentic self...not a contrived one.   Pride & Haughtiness does, after all, go before the fall.  That is all.